Sunday, April 11, 2010

Baby?

I've mentioned my pregnancy paranoia that I get at the end of every month. Lately, it seems like everyone has been mentioning baby # 2. As if, isn't it about time you popped out another? No, it's not. Thank you for your concern. Now shut up.  Maybe that's just in my head, along with the paranoia. It's probably more like, aren't you young and bad with birth control? We are expecting a slip up soon.

Yesterday, David and I were talking about if we wanted a baby # 2, and the timing. And we were both getting a little excited. My hamster wheel of a brain was turning. I had her name picked out (obviously, it would be a GIRL), and she would be due on Christmas Eve, and wouldn't it be funny to have a daughter named January that was born in December?...Ok, maybe we shouldn't be allowed to reproduce.
My Aunt was running a little late for her visit, so I took a test.


And then I was a little sad.

No, we aren't trying for another one. But, it wouldn't be the worst thing either. On the other hand, I'm also pretty relieved. I'm not sure yet that we want another. If it happens, I will be excited, but right now, I love my family how it is and I don't want it to change.

Have you had mixed feelings about more kids?

16 comments:

CourtneyKeb said...

I'm in the exact same boat as you are right now. Constant baby#2 questions followed by my constant denial of wanting another baby anytime soon.

Truth be told though, I do want another baby soon.

I just don't want to be pregnant.
I'm really terrified to be pregnant again since I had a really rough time the first go round.
BUT my precious angel was well worth all the suffer.

I've been going to the gym, and I plan on getting my body back into shape and maybe just leaving it up to God and see what happens. I'm super easy to knock up though, so we'll keep preventing until probably the end of summer. :)

It'll happen when it's supposed to.

Mandi Miller said...

Well, Sean is convinced I am pregnant right now. I'm not so sure because two tests later there is still no positive. But I've been getting headaches regularly, my boobs are really sore and I have just been plain hormonal when it shouldn't be anywhere near that time. I am also craving specific foods... all of which happened when I got pregnant with Maddy. I can't explain it but I guess we will see who's right in about 2-3 weeks!
Sean and I want baby #2 but if it doesn't happen for a while then at this point we are ok with that. Maddy is more than enough!!

Cas said...

I found out I was pregnant again when my 1st son was just 10 months old. I was floored. I am not ashamed to admit that floored was not in a good way. Not that I didn't want another baby but I am a planner. Another baby so soon was not in the plans...I know because I double and triple checked my planner...lol. It took me a long time to get over the worry and the fear. Twice the work. Twice the diapers. Twice the money. Some of those fears still pop up every once in a while especially with me still being floored. However the floored has changed. Now I am floored by the miracle and gift of having 2 sons...when every doctor and specialist I have ever seen told me I would never have any kids at all. I am trying to get rid of those tiny lingering feelings of fear and doubt but since I know now to expect the unexpected when you have kids I think that a little fear is smart and healthy.

Leigh Ann said...

This is soooo me right now. My son is 2 now, both of my sisters are either pregnant or have just had a baby... now everyone is watching us.
I have so many plans right now that need to be done before another baby.
I just don't know... Sheesh!

The White Farmhouse said...

We had our first 2 two years apart. They were 10 and 8. We were planning a trip to Hawaii. Our first real family vacation. I started to not feel so well. I thought it was the flu so I went to the doctor. Nope it was #3. She was supposed to be born on Christmas Eve but made her appearance on New Year's Eve. At first, I was not looking forward to going back into baby mode. The thought of packing for a month to just run to the store was not my favorite thing to do. As soon as I saw her sweet face, that all went out the window. It's been hard adjusting to a little one again, but well worth it. So having reservations about another one I think is normal.

Mrs. Lukie said...

Not even a Baby #1 here yet, but we're constantly asked when it will happen. And it's annoying. We are planners, and are planning on getting pregnant next year. I'm on the pill & am very diligent about it, but crazy as it sounds, I'm always slightly disappointed when my body informs me I'm not pregnant. So weird!

This Heavenly Life said...

Every DAY, I have those mixed feelings. I think...it's just called...motherhood :)

Pat said...

If I had it to do over again...I would have had FOUR...at least! But, like most, we stopped with two...because they were perfect children, of course! LOL...

I enjoy reading your posts!

Valerie said...

Okay, I can't comment on the baby thing without first asking why you dropped out of SYTYCD...?!?! I loved your stuff!!

Christy said...

I have a pal who has that monthly paranoia despite the fact that her tubes have been tied. ha,ha. I actually don't know a woman, aside from my mom and grannycakes, who don't have that monthly paranoia. tee hee. Being the couple that we are, (rely on God's will and not our own) we don't do anything to prevent pregnancy....despite the fact that we have three children.
:0)

With that "said" I can't imagine having a fourth baby or being pregnant again. Of course, if the Lord willed for us to have an addition to our family, I would be ecstatic. Once you have three, what's one more? As I've lost two babies due to miscarriage, though, pregnancy is a really scary thing for me. So, yeah, I'm definitely in paranoia city. Moved in and settled for the time being. :0P

Much More Than Mommy said...

I had mixed feelings on the timing, because we knew we wanted two but we weren't sure when we were going to be ready. God decided for us -- I mean, she was planned, but He gave us the prompting we needed to know it was time! Didn't leave any doubt! :-)

Sarah said...

I totally understand! I would go throught the same thing, get paranoid at the end of the month, take a test and be a little sad/relieved when it said no. People at my work are wondering when baby #2 is coming for me as well. Not any time soon! Thanks for your input on my post How Shallow Are You? I loved it! Monday we're talking about goals, if your interested in coming by and sharing some of your blogging goals. That would be great. Thanks! Sarah
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Anna See said...

you have so much time. lots of time to figure this one out. your feeling are natural. i've been there, too.

ModernMom said...

Um Yes! I'm 38 now and have 2 beautiful girls ages 11 and 8, and every few months I still think to myself, well if I got pregnant today I'd still be under 40. In my heart I know I'm done, but I still play the what if game :)

Katrina said...

I've definitely had mixed feelings!! My first thoughts were just terror. It sounds horrible but I thought I couldn't possibly love another baby as much as I love my son. Then I realized, of course I could love another baby just as much, and was ready for #2. Then my husband was laid off from his job. Wouldn't that just figure. I'm really glad we waited. I'm so ready for #2 though. In time, when we're back on our feet. :)

Licia said...

Although my husband and I have decided not to have any more children (we a 3-year old and a 1-year old) I have had mixed feelings about not having any more children. It's the right decision and, where I to consider having a 3rd child for more than 1 minute, I would arrive at the same decision. It's just that I see my "last" baby growing up so fast... I can't help but think about all those "last" moments, like the last bath in a baby tub, or the last nursing, or the last night in the co-sleeper. I'll never be the mom of a newborn again and that makes me a little sad.