I've been avoiding the blog for a while now.. The few times that I've sat down to write, I just haven't had much to say outside of long tirades of negativity. I don't want to pretend that I'm some mythical creature that doesn't have meltdowns. And yet, I don't want my blog to become a spewing stream-of-conscious of frustration and negativity that leaves me and you feeling downright repugnant. To put it simply, life has just been really hard lately.
David has been working two jobs and taking a very difficult summer class, leaving me with Dmitri and Damon the majority of the time. Being with two little ones two and under from 6:30 AM until 7 PM every day of the week, after waking up 4-6 times a night with a teething baby, has me feeling like there is no "me" left. Being stuck in a messy house while it's 105 degrees, and having to share a car has compounded issues. Not to mention that despite all of our hard work, we have been scraping pennies to pay the bills. I have become a mother-zombie who just wants to take a nap. And maybe punch something. And cry. And file for divorce.
It's been one of the most difficult times of my life. Knowing that our lifestyles are not sustainable, we have been evaluating where we can make changes and try to make our lives run a little more smoothly. A lot of transitions are in progress right now...
David was tired of working hard for a company where he couldn't get a raise or a promotion after working there for three years, so he put in his notice. I am glad that he will be home in the mornings now; I miss waking up next to my husband! It will also mean for the first time in three years, we will have one day off from school/work each week. We are beside ourselves to actually have half of a weekend now! He will continue to work at his other job, where he is the office manager for a storage facility, and I will have to get a job when I graduate in December.I'm not all that excited about it at the moment, but I will worry about that when the time comes.
We also got a bike. David has been biking to work the past few days and plans to bike to school starting next week. We are excited that biking will not only solve some of our car-sharing conflicts but it will also help us save money on gas (we are spending over $200/month right now!). Consistent exercise for David, as well as cutting down emissions add to the pros list. Dmitri also thinks its quite cool. He loves "bi-kikles" Hopefully it will continue to work out well, since we feel that we are in need of a second car, but just don't have the money for it right now
One thing that I have been very grateful for this summer is the Waldorf-inspired homeschool pre-school cooperative that I have been a part of starting. We will officially be starting in September, but we have been meeting 2+ times a week over the summer to prepare/plan. I absolutely love our group. They have been a great source of ideas and support, plus, we just have a lot of fun. It has really gotten me excited about homeschooling my little ones.
We are getting ready to start Fall classes on Monday. I cannot believe that it's here: my final semester as an undergraduate. That's something to smile about. I am still trying to finalize my schedule and get into some classes that are full right now. Here's to hoping that it will all work out over the next few days.
Well, that's the update. I am hopeful that life will calm down a little, I can find my rhythm, and blog more.
How's life? Ready for summer to end?
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