Did I mention how tired I am? Just in case you didn't know, I am SO tired. I slept 4 hours last night. Four hours. And I might be able to survive one night of that... But that's nothing new.
I started researching and reading up on how to get babies to sleep better. Because, all the literature says they should be able to sleep through the night by 6 months at the latest. (Yeah, like babies read those things...) A lot of what I read was pretty anti-co-sleeping.
This lead to me to a lot of self-doubt and mommy-guilt (what is up with the mom-guilt? Seriously, it's like, out comes the baby, the placenta, and then GUILT....)
So, the last thing I want is to not be able to admit that the decisions I made weren't the best decisions. I'm not going to be one of those parents. If co-sleeping really didn't work for us, I am going to accept it, and find something that does work for us.
Last week we started experimenting with other sleeping arrangements, i.e. putting Dmitri in his Pack N' Play. Some nights, it's worked a little better. Yay.
But last night, it was SO much worse. So here is what I've decided.
There is no answer. We are screwed. & I will never sleep again.